LIBRA HOROSCOPE (from astrology.com): Your love life is sparkling today — even if it feels old or dull. You just need to see things — or people — in a new way, and that’s your specialty. It’s a great time to be the object of your affections.
It’s hard to stay on board when it feels like the ship is sinking. Okay, maybe it’s not sinking. But my brain says it’s sinking. Perception is reality. Really, I’ve got a sinking feeling that there is nothing substantial keeping my relationship with Gabriel afloat. One final nautical reference: How do I turn the tide after getting that idea in my head?
Did it really all start with “Star Trek”? I sent Gabriel home last night before sex. Crazy, perhaps. Why give up the best part? But I want to see if we’ve got something more than just sex.
It might help if I shared my thoughts with Gabriel. Maybe we could figure out together what other things bind us. But last time I shared a concern with Gabriel—his female roommate—he was ready to end things. It just proves that there isn’t enough established yet to ground our relationship. He can get second thoughts when I bring up the roommate; I start questioning things when he reveals his inner sci-fi geek.
For tonight, we’re going for dinner. Can’t believe I’ve never been to Raincity Grill. I’m hoping I can pin down some common interests without coming across as an interviewer. I don’t even know what to ask. Only know what not to ask: favorite color, favorite ice cream flavor, reason for having a female roommate.
HAD A POWER OUTAGE IN MY BLDG SO I OVERSLEPT & MISSED THE OPP TO WALK MY NIECE & NEPHEWS TO SCHOOL AGAIN. MADE UP FOR IT BY “WALKING” THEM HOME. WHY IS IT THAT KIDS WALK TO SCHOOL BUT SKIP HOME? (NOT A REAL QUESTION, IS IT?)
I SHOWED UP @ SARA’S W/LUNCH FROM TERRA BAKERY. FIGURED SHE COULD USE A TREAT. SHE WAS TIGHT-LIPPED ABOUT THE WEEKEND & JERRY—A CLEAR SIGN NOTHING HAD BEEN DISCUSSED. I SWITCHED TO ASKING ABOUT THE APPTMENT W/THE SCH COUNSELOR. “SHE SAYS WE’VE GOT TO PULL TRAVIS AWAY FROM HIS FRIENDS. HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DO THAT?” I NOTED SHE SAID I NOT WE. YEP, JERRY’S NOT IN ON IT.
“WHO ARE HIS FRIENDS?” I ASKED.
“THAT’S PROBLEM NUMBER 1. I DON’T EVEN KNOW THAT. HE SHARES NOTHING W/ME ANYMORE. AND WHAT DO I DO? BAN HIM FROM ALL SOCIAL INTERACTION? I JUST GOT THE BATHRM BACK AFTER HIS OBSESSIVE MASTURBATION PHASE.”
“OVERUSED BATHRM OR DRUG-ABUSED SON. ISN’T THE CHOICE OBVIOUS?”
“YEAH, I KNOW. BUT IT’S NOT LIKE IT’S AN ACTUAL CHOICE B/W THE 2.”
“WANT ME TO BUY HIM SOME PLAYBOYS? PENTHOUSE? SOMETHING RAUNCHIER?”
“I’LL LET YOU KNOW IF IT COMES TO THAT. THANKS.”
TRUTH IS, I DON’T KNOW ANY MORE THAN SHE DOES HOW TO GET TRAV BACK. CRACK, XTASY, WHATEVER ELSE @ 13?! SHOULD HE BE GROUNDED & GIVEN A WEEKLY WEED ALLOWANCE AS A COMPROMISE? PARENTING IS STRESSING ME OUT. AND I’M JUST THE UNCLE.